A Revelation:...fuck it
:Warning:-Another depressing ass post(Sry)
Well guys I've decided fuck it.
I have a couple of more weeks of school and a couple of stupid ass band trips to New Orleans and Tampa,Florida and not excited one bit. Graduation will suck but the only + is that I will be leaving but not really for I will be here for the next 4 yrs and maybe longer. I'm almost 80% sure that I'll end up here at UAB, which sux a big one
I'm waiting for the 6 fat rejection letters I'll be receiving in the next month to prove you all wrong. And I get it from everybody, oh don't worry I'm sure you'll have choices... or no quit being pessimistic you'll get in somewhere. I'm sick of the lies and laughing to myself everytime people say that. I then think to myself, these people don't really know me then. I'm sure these people would be surprised for me to tell them that I have a 2.98 GPA and an 1100 on SAT. Yea that's what i sent to college. An underachievers application... oh yea and i spent 6 weeks at Cornell :)
TASP was not for me. TASP is not for underachievers. All TASP did was give me a false sense of hope that I might get into a selective college. But deep down I knew that would never happen. TASP simply gave me the foolish confidence to apply and waste um round $600 on apps. Those of you who were in Cornell II know that I contributed absoulutely nothing to our seminar. Yes Paul, you were right. You guys are smart... some of the smartest people I've met. Me... I don't know what I am. I think I just want to be smart but dont have the motivation and drive it takes. And those selective colleges are not for wannabes.
I think TASP also stunted my friendship growth. Instead of growing closer with friends I've known all my life I was creating new and in most cases stronger friendships only to be shattered by time and distance. Now i'm left in limbo or in a void as far as the friendship dept is concerened.
So now that I've laid out my cards you guys see the real Teddy. All of you guys are overachievers. All I can say is I'm blessed to know each of you I guess and good luck with wherever you guys go for college.
I just don't care about anything anymore. Fuck college, school, maybe even friendships that weren't meant to be. Yes that hurts and I'm sorry for that. Maybe I'm buring bridges and I don't mean to do that. I sincerely love all you guys and well yea
Teddy
Well guys I've decided fuck it.
I have a couple of more weeks of school and a couple of stupid ass band trips to New Orleans and Tampa,Florida and not excited one bit. Graduation will suck but the only + is that I will be leaving but not really for I will be here for the next 4 yrs and maybe longer. I'm almost 80% sure that I'll end up here at UAB, which sux a big one
I'm waiting for the 6 fat rejection letters I'll be receiving in the next month to prove you all wrong. And I get it from everybody, oh don't worry I'm sure you'll have choices... or no quit being pessimistic you'll get in somewhere. I'm sick of the lies and laughing to myself everytime people say that. I then think to myself, these people don't really know me then. I'm sure these people would be surprised for me to tell them that I have a 2.98 GPA and an 1100 on SAT. Yea that's what i sent to college. An underachievers application... oh yea and i spent 6 weeks at Cornell :)
TASP was not for me. TASP is not for underachievers. All TASP did was give me a false sense of hope that I might get into a selective college. But deep down I knew that would never happen. TASP simply gave me the foolish confidence to apply and waste um round $600 on apps. Those of you who were in Cornell II know that I contributed absoulutely nothing to our seminar. Yes Paul, you were right. You guys are smart... some of the smartest people I've met. Me... I don't know what I am. I think I just want to be smart but dont have the motivation and drive it takes. And those selective colleges are not for wannabes.
I think TASP also stunted my friendship growth. Instead of growing closer with friends I've known all my life I was creating new and in most cases stronger friendships only to be shattered by time and distance. Now i'm left in limbo or in a void as far as the friendship dept is concerened.
So now that I've laid out my cards you guys see the real Teddy. All of you guys are overachievers. All I can say is I'm blessed to know each of you I guess and good luck with wherever you guys go for college.
I just don't care about anything anymore. Fuck college, school, maybe even friendships that weren't meant to be. Yes that hurts and I'm sorry for that. Maybe I'm buring bridges and I don't mean to do that. I sincerely love all you guys and well yea
Teddy
posted by Theo at 11:14 PM
2 Comments:
DAMN, Teddy. You've gotta get out of this funk.
i know... it just sux
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